Episode 59: 100% Olivia Approved 💫

FULL THROTTLE INTO THE GREAT UNKNOWN!!! Are rabbits particularly nervous? RISING HORMONES!!! MUSIC HEAVY!!! & Being totes sobes, aka totally sober... Is 100% Olivia approved this summer. As is mediation and spiritual practice. Fighting with your demons only to eventually accept them. Fully Olivia endorsed. GOING TO THERAPY, 100% Olivia approved this summer. Hanging out in hot tubs with your friends, an essential summer Olivia endorsement. Being sexually liberated, 100% Olivia approved this summer and all the time. Let’s get freaky people.

Excerpt:

Alright, folks, well the time has come, it is upon us, I am leaving next week to head to Canada, to British Columbia to be exact. In 4 days! And, well, let’s just say I’m freaking out a little. I have recently just proven to myself I can travel, ohh you remember that. And now I’m just like, goin’ for it. Full throttle, no windows, no safety belt. Just into the great unknown. And boy does my nervous system have something to say about that. I’m like one of those, folks someone tell me what the most nervous animal is, ohh wait, i’m here talking to myself. Umm ok, I’m like a rabbit, just like looking all around wondering what’s gonna jump on me next. Are rabbits particularly nervous? Is there an animal that just paces in circles and never gets anything done, oh wait, that’s me, Humans, I’m that animal. This weeks been just like, let’s see how fast Olivia goes through a case of Ghia Non-Alcoholic Ginger Bitter Sodas when she’s stressed. The answer is wayyy to fast. And you guessed it, add a healthy dose of rising hormones and I’m about 2 hairs away from a meltdown. I mean I have managed to take the dead wicker patio furniture to the dump, clean up the front yard, hang hummingbird feeders, and balance the ph of my hot tub, I’ve gotten a lot done, none of it was homework, but you know, procrastination can take on many forms. And in between managing to marginally take care of my own needs… I straight up hung up on my partner yesterday, so that was a shining moment for me, the woman preaching communication and openness every week. And I have to say some of the nerves are about going and meeting all of these people I’ve been in school with, in community with online for the last 5 months just like in person, and you know I wasn’t exactly popular in high school, and I definitely wasn’t popular in middle school, and I really want these people to like me. They are after all, extremely cool, diverse and from all over the world, and let’s just say I’ve never had much… quote on quote, cool factor…. So that might have something to do with it. Maybe? And I know that wherever you go there you are, but I’m pms I can’t remember who I am at the moment. And I’m just, well, pacing. So! This episode is going to be a music-heavy one because that means less talking for yours truly. But we’re also going to attempt to soothe the soul, with some old classics, and some new and interesting music. And try to psych ourselves up into the right headspace for adventure instead of anxiety. Because as my partner reminded me today, excitement and anxiety are closely related in the brain, and that helped a little. So we’re gonna listen to some stones, some delta spirit, and maybe I’ll give you my list of Olivia’s approved summer things for 2022. And then I’ll be off, into a wild container of connection and intimacy. And I’ll say one last thing before we get on with our musical odyssey, and that is this: it has been incredibly hard, not to talk about any of the things I have been learning for school. I am going to school to become a licensed sexologist, specializing in lineage-based Tibetan Tantra and somatic sexual healing. And it’s all very confidential, but it also has me thinking a lot, about what it is I will be doing for a living very soon. You know if I pass all my tests with flying colors. I will be somewhere between a sex therapist and a somatic coach. With the ability to practice anywhere in the world. And my deepest hope is to open up the conversations we have around sexuality, around shame, around our bodies. And help people get free, to help people shift from a place of stagnation, of shame and powerlessness, to a place of power and liberation. And I better know WHAT THE FUCK I AM DOING. Because it is delicate work, powerful work, and boy do I wish I could talk about it more. But that’s a while off. So for now, here’s my newest favorite from Delta Spirit, “California” followed by “Beast of Burden” by The Rolling Stones.