Episode 80: And Nothings Really Changed!

DRAMA!!! NOT HEALTHY!!! THROW IT IN REVERSE!!! ILLUSIONS!!! A VAGUE WHISPER OF CONTROL!!! SO QUIET!!! Leonardo da Vinci!!! TIBETAN PRAYER FLAGS!!! A TORNADO OF WINGS!!! ENERGY ELECTRIC!!! RUINS!!! &

nostalgia traps me often in more moments than I would like to admit… god damn you and your shoulders. God damn you ruining everyone else for me. God damn you being the brightest thing in the world. God damn you and your unusual way of being. I am never without it. I carry your heart with me [I carry it in my heart]. I am never without it. And if I could wish it reversed backward, could I undo our hands bound by an EE Cummings poem? Conjecture. But not likely. Maybe I should give up. Maybe I have done searching. Maybe that was it. Had my loves. They were extraordinary. And nothing more.